Wednesday, July 01, 2009
A Deep Dark Time
Father God, I've just entered into one of the deepest darkest times that a person can go through.
Life as I know it has changed. Things will never be the same. I will never be the same.
I am broken.
Where are you? Where are you when my life is falling apart?
I can no longer smile. I can no longer be happy.
I am broken.
What am I to do? How am I to go on?
You are supposed to be The Comforter...The Father...The Great I AM, but where are you?
Why all the pain? Why all of the suffering? How can you let these things happen?
I am broken.
I act strong. I pretend not to be bothered, but on the inside I am a sensitive girl that can only take so much pain, and I've reached my limit.
I am quiet, and keep things to myself until I explode in hurt, and pain and anger...yet my heart is exploding now.
Has your heart ever hurt? I mean physically. Have you ever felt your heart hurt? I know what it feels like. Every thought feels like a knife twisting in my heart.
I am broken.
Fix me. Put me back together. Heal me oh God, for I cannot do it on my own any longer. I've tried. You know I've tried. But I've failed. I'm a failure once again.
Give me strength, for I am weak and feel there is no fight left in me. Give me something to fight for. Give me a reason to fight, a reason to go on.
Become the core of who I am, the center of my universe. Be the one I can count on when I can count on no one else.
Make things right. Make me right. Heal me. Love me.
For, I am broken.
Amen.
Written at 8:37 PM by Kristen.
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Monday, June 29, 2009
Brennan Crawling?
So, I wonder if Brennan will start crawling soon? He's been doing this little shimmy thing for a day or so now, and it's sort of like crawling, but not quite. It sure is adorable though!
He half rolls to one side, then hikes up his leg and then boosts himself forward about 1/2 inch. All this while NOT lifting his belly off of the ground. He sure is expending a lot of energy for so little movement! There has to be a more effective way!!!
Written at 6:08 PM by Kristen.
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Sunday, June 21, 2009
Happy Father's Day



We celebrated Father's Day a little differently this year than in years past.
The women prepared a yummy brunch for the dads that consisted of eggs, pastries, bagels, pancakes, bacon, quiche, etc. It was all sooo good!
After our brunch at my MIL's house, we all went to my FIL's house to celebrate with him a little bit. Karen made some really yummy finger foods...hummus, bruschetta, dips, quiche.
We took some family pictures, and just had a good time.
I wish all of the fathers out there a wonderful Father's Day. Miguel, you are such a great father to the boys, and they love you so much. You won't ever know how excited Colin is when he hears you pull up at night from work. It's beautiful.
The rest of the pictures are on my smugmug.

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Written at 4:26 PM by Kristen.
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Saturday, June 20, 2009
The Cutest Thing...
So, for about a week or so now, Brennan has been blowing kisses to everyone. I love all of his new tricks, but I especially love this one. He purposefully blows kisses. It is just too adorable.
Written at 4:25 PM by Kristen.
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Friday, June 19, 2009
Brennan Update
The dermatologist just called back to tell me that Brennan's skin biopsy came back. Wow! They told me 10-14 days, and it's only been 3!

God is good!

Brennan has a mastocytoma. I'll let you follow the link to read, b/c I won't be able to explain it correctly. Basically, it's NOTHING to worry about!!! Yay!
He may get more spots, but they will go away eventually, when he's a few years old. I'm just so happy that it's not cancer or something terrible like that.

Thank you for you thoughts and prayers. I know they helped!
Written at 6:00 PM by Kristen.
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Crazy Ebay People
I received an e-mail from someone yesterday regarding an eBay item that they won from me a year ago.
Background story: This person won the item. Never paid for it. I sent an invoice. Waited. Never received payment. After waiting 30 days for payment, I filed a 'non-paying bidder' complaint so I could get back my insertion and Final Value Credit fees. EBay contacted buyer, but never got a response from them. EBay closed the case and gave me my money back.
This buyer e-mailed me and asked me to 'help' them get their eBay account back. (Apparently, they were banned). They gave me some sob story about how their kids got into their account, bought the item blah, blah, blah. I e-mailed him back and told him that this was a year ago, the case was closed, and there was nothing I could do. He e-mailed me again this morning asking the same thing. I e-mailed him and told him the same thing. Then he e-mailed me back and told me how he paid me and how I should just help him out.
I went back into my eBay records and looked everything up...just to give him the benefit of the doubt. It was as I remembered it...he never paid and never responded to any attempts to make the situation right. I e-mailed him back and told him to stop e-mailing me, that this was A YEAR AGO, and that there was nothing I could do.
Next thing I know...30 minutes later I received a PHONE CALL from this man. He was blaming me for ruining his account (but I went back and I was not the only person who had problems with him) and that he would never be able to use e-bay again b/c of me!
The gall! #1 - It was a YEAR AGO. Get over it. #2 - He never paid for the item! I didn't leave him negative feedback or anything, I just filed to have my money returned. #3 - DON"T CALL ME!
Some people are just ridiculous!
Written at 11:46 AM by Kristen.
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Brennan Update
I just want to thank everyone for your prayers and thoughts today. Miguel and I were very nervous about Brennan's dermatology appointment.

The dermatologist looked at the 'growth' on Brennan's leg and immediately thought that it wasn't anything harmful. He gave us 2 diagnosis (long weird names) that he thinks it could possibly be...both benign. It's definitely a mass of cells. He told us that we could take the 'wait and see' approach...basically keep an eye on it and if it changes bring him back in. I hate this approach. He also offered to do a skin biopsy on him. That would give us a definitive answer as to what it is, but it involves a needle and a razor thingy. This option is a little more painful now, but at least we would have results. We chose to have the skin biopsy.

They did the biopsy right then and there, and Brennan did GREAT! He barely cried for the numbing medicine, and didn't feel the biopsy at all. We can expect to have results back in 10-14 days. We are hoping for the best. The dermatologist feels pretty confident as well.

I'll update again when I get the results back. Please keep Brennan in your prayers. Thanks!

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Written at 5:32 PM by Kristen.
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